This journal will be all over the place with what it's trying to explain and will most likely be quite long.)
Welp, here I am. Still coming back to this site, day after day. But of course, such a thing isn't meant to sound negative. I still love this site for the good side of it all, and enjoy coming to see what's new and what I've missed out on, as well as upload whatever it is that I've made.
And to think it all started out with an MLP obsession, has now grown into something different. Something I am more happy to be, rather than something of a complete annoyance and immature (which is something I do tend to be on my weird days
But aside from all of that, let's get down to it, shall we? Let's start out with one of the main things I wanted to talk about in this journal
So, nearly 600 watchers, huh?
Wow. Just the fact that I have just a little over half a thousand is still unbelievable to me.
But in all honestly, I would like to say to you all, my dear friends and fellow watchers, thank you. Thank you all, for sticking around, watching my art, commenting and enjoying it all. All the love you guys have given me is honestly highly appreciated. I am so grateful to have such wonder watchers like you all. Really, I wish I could give you all hugs, because you all deserve the love. It's great to see you all still enjoying the stuff I make day after day, it really is awesome. I would just like to say thank you again, all of this love and support does bring a smile to my face when I'm at my worst, honestly.
Just, thank you everyone. I started out as something small and silly, but now I'm something bigger, but still silly.
But thank you all, for you kind words, your support and the joy you have given me. I love you all so much, really.
Now onto another subject. My little absents (of sorts).
I explain all this in another journal because I attached a huge story about part of the reason why I haven't been around on dA.
That reason, and the fact that I've gone through a few life problems here and there that I have now gotten over. That's really it, to be honest.
Well that, and the lack of free time I get to work on doing Gmod pictures for this account and drawings for my other account, HayPatBro
Next subject, the change and how I feel.
Through my few trips to dA to see what's been going on here in the past, I noticed that a lot of things have changed, especially with the FNaF community. I'm still trying to settle down again into dA, but it's hard when there seems to be a whole lot of stuff going on that I'm completely unaware of. The more noticeable change(s) I've seen here are within the FNaF artist. A lot of them are much more... Different, from when I've last spoken to them or seen their stuff. People leaving dA (on occasions, temporarily), people gaining sudden popularity, etc.
And now, I look at them and just think that I could've been one of them. That I could've become something a little different from what I am today. So, I'm honestly glad I took this "break". Not trying to say anything or anyone here is bad in any way, I still think everyone is just awesome. I'm just glad I didn't go down the same path, because I feel that I would become something I wouldn't be happy with, some sort of sheep who's just following the herd.
You may not understand what it is that I am saying here. But if you do, know that I don't think negatively about anyone
here. It's just the changes are quite new to me and I'm glad I haven't followed the exact path of another artist (for certain reasons).
And now to how I feel.
Well, I feel left out, all alone on here.
Before, I had befriended quite a few of now highly known FNaF SFM/Gmod artists. And it was great to know and chat with them for the time that I did. But after what happened to me during this year, I found it harder and harder to keep contact with them all. Now I just, barely talk to any of them, honestly. There are a few artists I still do talk to on occasions, but very rarely. And now seeing how tight everyone has become throughout my long "break" from dA, made me realise now how alone I am.
But I guess it's hard to keep contact with people you can barely make conversations with to begin with. But I'll solider on, I still have some friends, and all of my lovely watchers, all of which I am very grateful of. I have nothing to truly complain about here, I'm still happy with the way things are as of now. I guess I just sort of miss some of the stuff some of the artists and I used to chat about from time to time. But oh well.
Other minor subjects.1.)
I am honest to god, thinking about my FNaF asks thing. I may one day reopen it, refreshed and new. I do miss making them, but I felt that I could never make a decent story out of it. So if I do, I'll probably store away the old asks into my scraps and come up with a new story to make the asks out of, keep what things I liked about the original asks and add more to it. Hopefully then it'll all work out just good. But don't get your hopes up guys! I may just think of trashing the entire thing and sticking to just making posters. But I don't know.
I will try to be more active on here, almost as much as past me. But I'll want to keep a balance between my drawing dA account, HayPatBro
and this account. But don't be surprised if I don't keep to my word and become even more inactive. Not always do I have the time, like many artists, to upload on a regular basis.3.)
I feel that I have become to FNaF focused, so I want to see if I can try to do many different artworks for many different games/movies/whatever. I want to appeal to more people with a wider variety of artworks. I only hope that I can carry this out with little hassle.
I don't think I could add more to that list, that's really it honestly.
But anyways, thank you to those who have read this, or at least the more important parts. I apologise for the lengthy journal, but I just had to type this so you all can get an idea of what I want to achieve and what has been going on with me and my inactivity.
Thank you all for sticking by, it has been quite a long ride and I am glad to have shared it all with you guys, my dear friends and watchers. I hope you all will have awesome days/nights, and I hope you all stay awesome.
See ya guys around~-H.P.B